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| Sep. 24th, 2009 | 09:34 pm | ||||||
It's not that I'm complaining - all stories have to end, and it's not like the artists/writers aren't going on to other things (certainly, K. Sandra Fuhr and John Allison, of Friendly Hostility and Scary Go Round respectively, started new comics immediately after their previous ones finished - Other People's Business and Bad Machinery - both of which feature characters from the previous comics in secondary roles, which makes me happy.) It's only that webcomics are, pathetically, one of the most constant things in my life (you only have to look at my Webcomics Pimping List to see how many of them I read) and comics like Friendly Hostility and Yu+me - which, I think, are the first two I started reading, way back when - are actually pretty important to me, in a weird way. I invest a lot of emotion in them, because, unlike a book or a film, they're a very long-term involvement. A film lasts two hours, a book maybe a week, but a webcomic can last over a decade, with the same core cast of characters. I suppose it's like a soap opera, just...less awful. And without the horror of bad acting. But you see my point; Fox and Collin, Lia and Fiona, Otra and Winter have been a part of my life for something like five years, and letting go of them is quite hard. I can only imagine how hard it must be for their creators. Of course, the solution to this would be to get a goddamn life. But this seems an unlikely thing to happen. |
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| Jul. 24th, 2009 | 11:26 am | ||||||
My Amanda Palmer book came. When I realised what the package was, when it dropped through my door, I started shaking. I'm still a little trembly. I've read the book. It is very beautiful. She is very beautiful. On a more materialistic and craven note, my cheques cleared, so I can now buy all the fripperies I've been wanting for a while. Like a Distorted View Sideshow membership, a new EHD, and membership to the Liberal Democrat party. Friendly Hostility, despite much terrifying foreshadowing, ended on a happy note. Fox and Collin are, as yet, not broken up. This makes me happier than, proportionately speaking, I should be. But I've been reading that comic for five years, it was the first webcomic I ever read, and it's a pretty strong connecting thread for me, so I'm very much emotionally invested in the characters. Sandra's new comic, Other People's Business, appears to have gotten off to a good start. I'm glad to know that some Friendly Hostility characters will be in the new comic as secondary characters, though. I'd miss them an awful lot if they were to disappear entirely. Last night was also good. Tim Minchin's live set on E4 was beautiful...he played "Not Perfect" and "You Grew on Me", so I was basically in tears. I can't wait until I see him this autumn. I kind of talked my way through an essay on webcomics last night, too. I might write it at some point. I've got the bare bones of a Loveless essay (on Names and Zeroes, mostly) in a Notepad file somewhere, so I'll finish that first. It's a matter of remembering to take all the manga downstairs with me so I can use it as reference. I hope rereading the important bits of the manga won't put paid to any of my theories. That'd be a fucker. Anyway, I must cease and desist - I've got to do my hair and makeup and so on, since I've a driving lesson in a couple of hours. Tootle pip. |
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I'm watching a documentary called "Reverend Death" - about this Unitarian priest in America who helps people commit suicide. Not just the terminally ill - there are other organisations for that - but people who just want to die but don't have the means or whatever. Leaving aside my own moral discussions of the issue - which are surprisingly grey, for me - what I wanted to blog about is this woman, Susan, who he's grooming as an assistant. The difference between him and her is that he sees this as a calling; she sees it as a business. And the more I listen to her the more she is Suicide for Hire come to life! It's a little creepy. (She's not nearly as cool as Hunter, though. Or as adorably moral as Arc. Hee. XD) |
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| Jun. 20th, 2007 | 10:04 pm | ||||||
Comicgenesis, I don't give a shit about your server problems. You are one of the two biggest webcomic hosting services on the Internet, and you have been decidedly shoddy for over two weeks. What the FUCK? I NEED MY SUICIDE FOR HIRE FIX. Ugh. In other news (because I did promise something, y'know, interesting. Oh, wait...): I KILLED MY GHDS. Why, yes, I am a FUCKING MORON. In my defence - it was the middle of the night, it was dark, I'm a cripple, they were under a duvet, I was distracted on account of Carri being here. That doesn't ease the sting - the AGONY - of having to shell out £85 for new ones, though. Bye-bye, bonus, bye-bye. See you in February. Ohhh, Goooodddddddd. What else has happened? Oh, oh! Lorn and I are gonna go meet Cho in London, which is awesome. I have one - ONE! - more exam left, which is piss-easy anyway. BIBLE STORIES LULZ. I have - maybe, MAYBE - an idea for a El Laberinto Del Fauno femmeslash fic. Mercedes/Carmen, post-movie. The basic idea is that Mercedes is actually Moanna's maid, who followed her into the human world and waited in the mill for her. When Mercedes dies - and I'm pretty sure that's going to be at the hands of the next Captain Franco sends to the area - she will, of course, go back to the Underworld, where HOT LESBIAN SEX will prevail. OF COURSE. You can tell I wrote it 'cause there's lesbians. =DDDD I suddenly feel like Josh Lesnick, and that's...a wee bit worrying. I'm not as awesome as him, though. D'oh. D= So. What else? Oh, I saw Dr Wood - is that his name? I think it is - the other day, and I haven't had a single attack since I saw him last - which is AMAZING AND WONDERFUL AND YAAAAY! - so he says we should half my medication dose. I'll do so after my last exam, just to be sure, and I've got some emergency meds in the bathroom cabinet in case I have an attack. I'm getting used to walking with the cane. It's a little awkward, only having one hand - I'm used to being able to, I dunno, re-adjust my bag strap or whatever whilst I'm walking, and having actually to stop, hook my cane on my wrist and do so is quite annoying. And it makes carrying breakfast from the kitchen to the office difficult, too - what do you do with a glass AND a plate AND a cane, especially since I really can NOT walk without the thing in the mornings. Bad knee. BAD. Carri came over last night. It was one of those last-minute things, where she phoned up and we were like "OKAY COME OVER RIGHT NOW." I like it when that happens because, uh, she doesn't have a chance to decide she hates me again and pull out. No details, but suffice to say I'm really fucking tired, and really fucking happy. I got Lorn a Doctor Who birthday card that says You Are 6 Today. I think she'll appreciate it. XDD HAHA MY AC:WW TOWN IS PERFECT. Now I've just got to keep it that way. For fifteen days. ... BOLLOCKS. Haha. But I'm A Cheerleader got a rating somewhere in the thirties on RottenTomatoes. That doesn't surprise me, because a movie like that gets BLASTED as soon as you try to take it seriously/intellectually. It's still one of my favourite movies, on account of being AWESOME, and I do tire of the - quite often straight - people who say that one should never make light of the horrors of "gay rehab", as it is wonderfully named in the movie. This, my friends, is bollocks. The whole concept, the whole idea that one can somehow change someone's sexuality by enforcing the fulfilment of sterotypical heteronormative gender roles is so ridiculous that, to be honest, you have to laugh. Unless you're one of the kids in these places, in which case BREAK OUT THE LOCKPICKS. One review said that "Any self-respecting lesbian should rear up in horror at [this movie]." Well, shit. I mean, I've obviously lost the right to call myself a self-respecting dyke if I like an unashamedly trashy and ACTUALLY FUNNY movie about a real-life subject that is so absurd as to be hilarious when in a fictional setting? I'd like to make the point now that the person saying this was a straight bloke, who OF COURSE would know EXACTLY what "self-respecting lebians" should and should not do. Besides. THERE ARE LESBIANS. I thought these people would have learned by now. LESBIANS MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER. SERIOUSLY, people. GET A CLUE. *eyeroll* I've got to go in...ten minutes. Just enough time to expess my sincere - well, mostly - guilt over my abandoning of Bal-Sagoth over these past couple of weeks. Last week, Last.fm told me I'd listened to THREE TIMES as much Ensiferum as I did Bal-Sagoth. My gods. That's AWFUL. It's all this new music I've gotten. I love the great Gods of War as much as I ever did, but...I've just not had time to listen to them. Right? RIGHT?! Haha, no, seriously. I LOVE YOU LORD BYRON. <333333333 *ahem* Yeah, well, fuck it. I have muffins. =D |
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| Jun. 5th, 2007 | 03:55 pm | ||||||
In other news, I got me an Amazon wishlist. Haha, bandwagon or what? This is, of course, a none-too-subtle hint to whoever might be reading this to BUY ME STUFF. Hehh. DL Alexithmia's leaving Gaia. D= Just thought I'd mention that. I don't know her particularly well, but she's been a big stalwart of the Metal Subforum (my particular baby of choice) for a long, long time and I'm gonna miss her, actually. So I recced her some albums (at her request) and got a heart emote in return. D'aww. <3 Speaking of leaving! `Otter's leaving NP! *sob* And he's made Lorn Guild Captain, which is A Bit Stupid, given that she'll go on a fucking powertrip and bleh. Might make my way onto the crew, though. Y'never know. XDD Earthsong volume 1 arrived today. =D It's quite awesome - I've been reading the comic for a very, VERY long time and it's nice to have it in print. I do hope it sells well enough for Lady Yates to bring out Volume 2 - aside from anything, I like her a lot and I'd really like to see her succeed. YuMe Volume 1 should arrive soon, too. I'd check what the usual delivery times are but ComicGenesis seems to be down so I can't get to the site. Damn. Haha. I Was Kidnapped By Lesbian Pirates From Outer Space! is so awesome. And funny. The fourth wall cracks a little in the most recent page, but it's incredibly groovy. "Pirates. Aliens. Lesbians. None of those things are real! Everyone knows those things are only found in pulp novels. Especially lesbians." Hee <3 |
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| May. 4th, 2007 | 08:56 pm | ||||||
So, I'm going to list my webcomics. See, I read a lot of them. And by a lot I mean more than forty, and that's just the regular ones. I find them all over the place, read the archives and get hooked. I've memorised which days each one updates on. It's probably quite unhealthy but dammit if I don't love the things. Anyway, this list might be quite useful if I want to pimp out some comics to people. And it'll give me a list if I ever lose my bookmarks again. Note that some of them may not be worksafe, and a lot of them contain boykissing, girlkissing or other variations on such, not to mention violence, profanity, and all those other wonderful parts of life. I'll list when they update, as well. I'll update this when I start reading new ones. ( Comics, comics everywhere. ) TOTAL: 106 webcomics: 66 updating regularly and/or frequently 15 updating infrequently and irregularly 12 finished 10 on hiatus 03 discontinued Christ. I read far too many webcomics. |
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| May. 4th, 2007 | 07:19 pm | ||||||
Booh. Also: FMA 5 arrived! So did my hat, but it's TOO FUCKING SMALL. I am very, very pissed off about this. So we're going to rent one from Benets, which means I have to go down there tomorrow so they can, uh, measure my head. Yeeeah. I dunno. I just feel weird today. It's probably because I'm bone-shatteringly tired, and my knee feels like it's on fire, and my wrist's been bad today as well. The internet's crawling - I might reset it later, actually - and I don't know, things just feel...odd. I'm so TIRED and I have no idea why because I've gotten more sleep this week than I have in the past two - no late-night coursework sessions, and for some reason I seem to be sleeping a little better, which is encouraging - but I'm SO FUCKING TIRED it's not even funny. It's ridiculous, I swear. Got my hair cut yesterday. Only a couple of inches off the bottom, just to get rid of the split ends. It looks and feels nice, but of course it won't last. I'll be back to skanky hair in no time, just you wait. Carri's coming over on Sunday. And, of course, I'm ecstatic - any time with her is good - but nevertheless it's causing me more angst than I'd like. Given our history, every time I talk to her I keep expecting a "Sorry, but I can't come...", or similar. And I know it's not particularly nice to expect that but judging from past experience... Still, she doesn't seem to have pulled out this time, so I'm happy. Had a long talk with Alex Bowden during free period today. Mrs Flewitt was teaching an English class in the library so I couldn't use the computers like I usually would, so we ended up sitting on the beanbags at the back of the fiction section and talking about stuff. Mostly getting drunk, accidental sex and drugs. But I suppose that's what 'normal' teenage girls think about these days. I really wouldn't know. I don't have much to talk about. Either that or apathy has finally gotten to me, in which case there's no point in me talking at all. I just...I don't know. There doesn't seem to be much point to anything at the moment. Everything's disappointing, or irritating, or just plain bad, or so it seems. Even the good stuff either doesn't last or brings more negativity with it. Don't worry - as if you would - I'm not sinking into the pathetic morass of scene melodrama that 'normal teenagers' are so prone to, I'm just in an odd place at the moment and not sure how to get out of it. In other news? I've found a couple of new webcomics. I'm still working my way through the archive of the second one. It's called Darken and I'm really enjoying it, actually. The characters are very endearing - there's a lot of RPG influence, particularly D&D and so on, and they're sort of based off Fighter, Thief, and so on, but they have wonderful characters. Not to mention that there are two rather attractive girls in it, so who am I to complain? Haha, no, of course I don't judge things based solely on how many hot chicks are included. It's not even a deciding factor. ... Usually. Anyway. See, this is the kind of thing I end up talking about when I'm really out of ideas, because I feel the need to write something after not updating for a while. I mean, it's not like anyone reads this, so I don't know who I'm trying to please, but never mind. Doctor Who's on in three quarters of an hour. I've seen this one already, but I'll probably watch it again. To be honest, I'm mostly killing time until Episode 11, because as much as I love the Doctor - and I do love the Tenth Doctor, quite a lot actually - and I certainly don't hate Martha - ahem - but Jack...well, he's special, isn't he? And I'm desparate to know what's going to happen when he gets into the TARDIS, especially whether he'll recognise the Doctor now he's regenerated, and just what his whole reactions's going to be to the whole 'No Rose, new companion, now what?' thing. I mean, I'm certainly not Rose's biggest fan - ha. ha. ha. - but there's no denying that Jack cared for her a lot - platonically in my view, not in the view of what seems like HALF THE FUCKING FANDOM - so his reaction to Rose being in the other universe will be...interesting. Still can't wait for Torchwood Season Two, though. And that's not going to happen until next YEAR, which is just awful. I'm more interested in Ianto's reaction to Jack's return than anything else, to be honest. I mean, my huge - HUGE - love for Tosh nonwithstanding, and since Suzie's dead I can't exactly cite her, but Ianto is a wonderful, wonderful character and since Gareth David-Lloyd has said that Season Two will focus more on Ianto's character and character development, I think we're going to have more Jack/Ianto goodness. Hehh, everything comes back to fandom. Whatever. |
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[Angel Sanctuary] [1] Katou [Saiyuki] [1] Gojyo and Hakkai [3] Gojyo [Satyricon] [2] K.I.N.G. video [Friendly Hostility] [1] "The G Word" story arc [House of 1000 Corpses] [1] Grandpa Hugo [1] Richard Wick [1] The Murder Ride [Placebo] [1] Brian [Golden Sun] [1] Alex
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| Jan. 2nd, 2006 | 08:29 pm | ||||||
For Christmas, we got... A Buddha pendant (WTF? Did Paula completely miss the religious significance of that or does she really think I'm a Buddhist? O___o) A skirt (pretty and black and - thank fuck - full-length) £135 (ta be spent on GHDs and New Rocks, should eBay be merciful) An iPod speaker-dock A pretty sun-catcher (it's all hearts. Wubwub!) Tomato soup (XDDDDDDDD) Silly putty (Yaaay!) Eerie Queerie 2-4 A silver plated mouse and wrist rest (O___________________________o) Shampoo (XDDDD) Kyara, apparently, got a personal DVD player. *raised eyebrow* I want rich gay uncles, goddammit! Instead I have poor gay best friends. XD Fuck, Moonblossom deleted my post. In a dead thread. Where I mildly insulted a complete fucking idiot, who was also a troll, who was flaming anyone who didn't agree with her, who was thirteen, who believed that she was MCR's biggest fan 'cause she had one shirt, both albums and four posters. Stupid cunt. :gonk: I made a good case in that point, too! And she deleted it. Argh. Life hates me. :gonk: I was confoozled the other day. I got Metal Hammer (o' course), and they were givin' away Battle Metal 3, another one o' their compilations. And the first track? Cradle of Filth. Great, fine, awesome! Always good ta see yer favourite band on the cover o' yer favourite magazine. Problem is? It was fucking Satyrasis. How the FUCK is a CoF instrumental metal? At all? It's CLASSICAL, fer fucksake. Even I don't listen to 'em much ('cept Damned in Any Language, which doesn't count). I mean....WTF?!?!?! Okay, spaz over. I dunno, I have nothing to say, really. XD I'm just bored. Boredboredbored. Aaalways bored. Eh, fuck this. I'ma gonna go make some icons, or somethin'. OH YEAH! That reminds me! I made a load of icons... In fact, I'm turning this into the IconDump. Enjoy XD ( Mmm. Icon-y goodness... ) |
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| Sep. 28th, 2005 | 01:09 pm | ||||||
2. Longest book you've ever read: Dunno. Maybe the HP: HBP? 3. Strangest title of a book that you've read: Ugh, I dunno. Nothing comes to mind. 4. Stupidest ending of a book you've read: Probably the ending to The Withered Arm, by Thomas Hardy. It's a short story, but it fucking counts, okay? It was crap, anyway. 5. Which literary character have you related to the most? Christ. Um. Sam Vimes, Sybil Ramkin, Agnes Nitt. #Specially Agnes. 6. Do you prefer fiction or nonfiction? Fiction. Nonfiction's usually pretty boring, unless it's a rockstar (auto)biography. Come to think of it, those probably count as fiction too...XD 7. Did you have a series of children's/young adult books that you once enjoyed? Hah, the Redwall books. XD I was SO obsessed with those (once upon a time). 8. Can you enjoy reading the source book after seeing the screen adaptation? Sometimes. I usually read the book BEFORE I see the movie, which makes me very critial of the movie (Peter Jackson, ARE YOU LISTENING?!) 9. Have you ever read a novelization of a movie or TV show? Yes. Unfortunately. 10. Book that "turned you on" the most, erotically speaking: O_o. Just O_o. 11. Is there a real-life person that you've read more than one book about? Kurt. (So sad. I really am. Argh). And Metallica. 12. Book that everyone's read but you: Oof. I dunno. Oh, no, yes I do! The Lemony Snicket books. I tried to read the first one, almost died of boredom. 13. Favorite "classic" writer/novelist: Tolkien? He counts, right? If not...urm...ugh...I don't read classic boooks! (Fine, Machiavelli. SCREW YOU.) 14. Favorite contemporary novelist (let's say 1950's on): Tolkien, then. 15. Favorite short story writer: I don't read short stories. Fanfiction author? ScrewTheDasies (otherwise known as Heather), Evaine, motherlovemelon, Lady Jaida, (whoever wrote Cities Apart) and Asaka Kiseragi. And ZARLA! *luff* 16. Favorite columnist/journalistic writer: Don’t really read journalistic stuff. 17. Favorite poet: Don’t read poetry either. 18. Favourite guilty pleasure book or series: Hmm. Don’t have one. Oh, I know! The Night World books. 19. Favorite book written by a famous actor or musician: Well, do autobiographies count? In which case, The Dirt or Long Hard Road Outta Hell. 20. Author whose work you once enjoyed but no longer do: Brian Jaques. Hmm. 21. Favorite comics/graphic fiction author: HOMFG. I read SO many webcomics…so…Sandra, who does Friendly Hostility, Adis who does Count Your Sheep, and Rosalarian who does Yu+Me. *luffluffluff* |
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| Jun. 23rd, 2005 | 07:11 pm | ||||||
Wrote the first chapter/prologue thing of the 'Dave goes nuts fic'. S' probably gonna be one of the creepiest things I've ever written...not quite on a par with Zarla's creepydiaryfic, though. Damn, that's SO creepy. Basically, s' set in the couple o' months after Kurt's funeral. Dave was Kurt's lover when he was alive, and he kinda goes insane, thinks Kurt's still alive - that there was no shotgun, that he tried to OD but survived, came back to 'em, was alright after that. Krist gets increasingly freaked out - well, ye would, seeing yer drummer smile and talk to your dead best friend - and ends up committing him to an asylum, for his own good...and, perhaps, for Krist's own peace of mind, and ends up very lonely and very miserable. Aww, poor Krist. :( I torture him, mmyes I do. There's something about rockfic metslashers that means they're ALWAYS all mean to Larsling. He gets raped by MUSTAINE, of all people (YYEEEUUURRRGGHHH) in Nightmares, has to kill Jase and Jamie and Quirk in the freaky bug fic, and...and...well, poor Squirt! He does get Quirk and Jamie, though, so maybe s'not all bad. XD Oh, apparently a pregnant goldfish is called a twit and a whale's dick is called a dork. Snigger, snigger. Owwie, I just cut my tongue open on a coke can (A-FUCKING-GAIN) and there's blood everywhere and I'm in PAAAIIN. 2-D/Del? How the fuck would that work? Del's a GHOST, dude. ...Oh. Eeeeeeeh. Aww, Axl looks all lost and sweet in the Welcome To The Jungle video. Awwwsies. FUCK I CAN'T TYPE. I worship thy top hat, Slashling. Actually, I think I'm married to it. Hooboy. I WAS DRUNK. ...Honest. XD The hat better be a bloody chick, that's all I have ta say. :P Whee, the very erotic noises in the middle o' Welcome To The Jungle. S' probably summit ta do wit' the fact that Slash is standing right behind him. XD Mm, metslash. Hawtboysex! Dani: "Motley Crue. Loser junkie posers...blahblah...Nikki Sixx sucks...yaddayaddayadda...OMGHAWTBOYSMEC Haha. Special Friend is SUCH a good fic, though. So good I printed it out. Yeah, I know, fangirl. SO SUE ME, FUCKERS. God, I have an obsession with this video - Incubus' Drive. S'a good song, good video. What scares me is that Brandon Boyd looks SO MUCH LIKE Kyara's brother. Seriously, they're, like, identical. Meeeeples. Alyssa was bein' weird yesterday. In English we're bein' made ta do this Write Away thing...basically, we have ta write crappy stories of something that happened to us in our life, and they'll be judged and shit...Nothing interesting ever happens in my life, so I ended up doin' about when I found out about Lia...mm. So, we were in IT Milford, typing this shit up, and Alyssa was sitting next to me being all 'nothing ever happens to me, I dont have a life, blahblahblah' which is very...uh...typical of her. (Read: Immature and FUCKING ANNOYING). So me an' Hara were tryin tae suggest stuff fer her ta do, an she was like 'no, no, can't do that', and we were like 'make something up, then, you spend most of yer life making stuff up, ye should be good at it by now' (Well, not the second bit, but I was thinking it. Such a good liar must be a good storyteller, after all), an' we could do about our relationship with someone, so Hara mentioned Kurt and I mentioned Vannia, and she started crying. Have I mentioned (yeah, I probably have), how BLOODY annoying it is when she does that? Jesus fucking Chrsit on a pogo stick! We all have problems, you know, but we don't burst into tears in the middle of a fucking lesson, THEN expect other people to be all comforting and nice. She's so fucking melodramatic. I mean, she IS good a writing, but she goes on about how she's shit, and you end up agreeing with her just to shut her up! Modesty is fine, but being annoying about it is just stupid. Ye shouldn't be all boasty and shit about it (like Ana's being about her exam results. Yargh), but ye shouldn't piss people off by sayin' yer bad ALL THE TIME. I think she just takes stuff that's okay too far, ye know? Like the whole intimacy thing. Hugging people is fine, you know, at least for teenage girls. But hanging off 'em ALL THE DAMN TIME isn't. And glomping them randomly, and like, rubbing your face against their neck...NONONONONO. It gives entrirely the wrong sort of impression. S'okay fer the straight ones, but fer me... I hate how people who speak out against big corporations get picket on - people who have a POINT OF VIEW in general, actually. Poor Larsling... I may not AGREE with him, exactly (Yay! Napster! (Well, upon a time. When it was still illegal. ^^;;) Yay! Limewire!), but I respect him greatly for standing up for his band and the rights he should posess as a musician. Of course, I respect him greatly as a musician, too. Best fucking drummer EVER. I'm in a terrible bind. Bert called Lars a prick, but...but...I LOVE THEM BOOOOTH! *sobs in a corner* Holy FUCK. SEXY Scriabin. Love this style...he looks hot as hell, and YES I can say that even though I'm gay. :P I mean, I can appreciate male smecksiness, right? If straight chicks can say other chicks are pretty... Not like I'd do 'im, anway. Devi, yes, but not 'im. I might cosplay Devi fer Halloween. I'd need to dye my hair purple, though, which makes me go :/. Aww, Larsling! SO cute I just wanna give 'im a hug XD. Weeble! WEEBLE I SAY! Off scool taday 'cause stomach fucked up this morning. Mucho pain, but I ain't complainin' cause I got ta miss PE and food and me piano lesson, which is a VERY GOOD THING. ...That makes it sound like I was skivin', but I wasn't. Not to say I haven't, in the past, but I wasn't this time. Mom thinks I was, though, which is very annoying. ...what is it with people asking me to send 'em porno? First Xeenling then Princess. S'very weird. Not sure whether to be insulted or complimented or neither or both. :| Stupid fucker of a mother. She's going on about how I ate all the cake, that there was, like, three inches left, but there WASN'T. There was, like, a centimeter left. Dad saw me take it outta the tin, so... Fucker. Oh, God, I LOVE this video. Nancy Boy...Brian Molko's a fucking GENIUS. Yay, gratuitous cumshot. XD *sings* Greatest lay I ever haaaaaad... Uh, yeah. XD Aww, he's so SWEET, though. All bobbed hair and blue eyes. And, you know, making out with yer bassist on stage is a great way to sell records. XD "Imagine that Napster is one huge ass; we're gonna fuck it without the benifit of lubrication." Way to go, Brian. ^^;; His speaking voice is so weirdly deep, though. If you didn't know it was him, you'd never think it was the same person. Freaky. AAAAAANNNNNNAAAAARRRRCCCCCHHHHHYYYYYYY! Whee. The Sex Pistols videos are the only ones I've ever seen where the video soundreack is different from the recorded one. Unique...well, s'like 'em, right? I wonder why so many people hate Slipknot. I've seen loads of people call 'em 'posers' and stuff, saying they look stupid in the masks, but...god, just listen to their music! You can FEEL the anger coming off it, it's so strong. The emotion's tangible, more so than for so many of the 'good' rock bands out there. (*cough*The Darkness*cough*) They're not posers, not by a long shot. I REALLY hate The Darkness. Almost as much as I hate limpbizkit...however the fuck you spell it. Fucking Fred Durst...how DARE he call Brian a fag onstage?! FUCKER. Plus, you know, his 'music' (if you can call it that) SUCKS. Rap-rock is an abomination. Makes me ears bleed. I'd almost say that for Glam Rock, but I love Motley Crue and Poison too much. ^^;; MODERN Glam Rock, however, is SHIT. The Crue can get away with wearing arse-revealing spandex - The Darkness CAN'T. Largely 'cause Vincey, Nikki, Mick and Tommy are sexy. Justin Hawkins is just...URGH. His brother ain't SO bad, I guess. But still... Haha, they sacked their bassist and replaced him with a roadie. HAH. What really suck is the leaving-ness of the Cradle of Filth keyboardist. Dude, that's just SO sucky. Dani ish luff. Even when he's making out with a microphone. ^^ Can't taste particularly nice... Princess keeps trying ta make me make a move on Biazra. I dunno, I like 'er, but...I'm no good at making the first move. At all. Fear of rejection...I suck at life. Really, really suck at life. I'm starting to run outta things to talk about...dude, I'm pulling a Fox, right? My fingers will start bleeding any minute soon. XD Bai, everybody! ~*New blood joins this earth, and quickly he's subdued, through constant pain, disgrace, the young boy learns their rules...* |
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Fuckety fuck. And stuff. You know what really sucks? (Apart from the whole dying part, of course.) Kai can't...help us, anymore. No more Kai-blood. Well, I don't wanna get AIDS. FUCK. I can't ask Jessi to donate, that would just me mean. After everything he went through, is still going through...no. Mikhan's not into that kinda thing, Angel ain't either. So, Fi or Spike. I'll ask 'em next time I see 'em. In the mean time, I'm all shaky and meh-ish. Stomach hurts, head hurts, FAR TOO FUCKING HOT. New bulb in room looks groovy. Red light is shibby, but it would look better with a black room. (*cough*Fucking misers of parents*cough*) Woke up at one in the afternoon today - 14 hours of sleep, but it doesn't make up for the night before last - not a wink. Was on the computer all night...probably not good for me, but, you know, what-the-fuck-ever. Can't sleep, really. Not since we found out. Too much to think about, my brain won't shut down properly. And when I do sleep...well, me dreams ain't nice at the best o' times, an' certainly not now. Awf has a rather groovy deviation up... http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/194 S'apt. I've made a load o' new avatars, too. Made an animated one (Stefan/Brian, as per usual) that I can't use on DJ 'cause it's 30k too bif. Fuck you, DJ. :P The bastard had a hissy-fit at me last night. T'was rather weird. He was naggin' me 'bout gettin' off t'computer, I was yelling over the music (Marilyn Manson - Personal Jesus. DAMN GOOD SONG), and then he was, like, yellin' an' slappin' me bad knee, which fucking HURTS. Ooh, the Turn The Page video. How wonderfully...whore-ish. Can't watch it wit' parents around, though. XD James Hetfield has a fucking sexy voice. Seriously, as a lesbian, I can still say that. Not, perhaps, as sexy as Brody Dalle's, but...sexy, nevertheless. Aww, Larsling ish so adorable. Especially in the Nothing Else Matters video...all kawaii and long-haired. Sweet. SCALLIONS! Not gonna get over that any time soon. Aww, Robin's being all sweet and sexually insecure. Although having gay incesty dreams about your (not as hot as the other one) brother is slightly scary. Well, unless it's 'Roh and 'Dan doin' it. XD He's SO bi. Seriously. A two on the Kinsey scale, I'd say, maybe a three? More bi than Fox, less so than Collin. Yes, I do everything in relation to Friendly Hostility. Fuck you. :P Sadra was in surgery recently. O_O Dunno for what, but no updates fer a week. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS ABOUT THE HAAAAAT! *ahem* Yes. Yay for the random lesbians in the Whiskey In The Jar video! Evidentally James' homophobia doesn't extend to lasses. Well, that's a good thing. XD God, this Gorillaz fic is SO good. http://www.livejournal.com/community/go Given that most Gorillaz slash is scarily shitty - c'mon, would Murdoc ever mope about 'drowning in 2-D's eyes'? *snigger* Muds, yer a bastard. But we love ye fer it. Bleh, Russel slash. JUST NO. Noodle in a few years time, sure. She's actually quite sexy, which is SCARY. On the Dirty Harry thing on the leaflet for Demon Days...yeah. Woah, dude. Just...WOAH. Her hair is all prettyfull now she's grown it out. Shit, parents are yellin' at me to come eat. I'M NOT FUCKING HUNGRY, WANKERS! And it's hot food, too. Nooooooooooo. :gonk: ~*Me, I like sleepin', especially in my Molly's chamber...but here I am in prison, here I am with a ball and chain, yeah...*~ |
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Well, not in so many words, but you get the gist of it. Urgh. Human contact. I think I'm allergic. Humanophobia? Erin says I'm phallophobic. I agree. Cock = gross. Pussy, however = yum. Oh, the joy of being a complete and utter pervert. I'm sure it's a gift - being able to find innuendo in EVERYTHING, not just the obvious stuff like popsicles. Mmm...popsicles...XD Collin has a lime jello fetish. Fox thinks it's useful to exploit. And cute, of course. But many things to do with Collin are cute. I want my tongue pierced. Seriously, I really, really, wanna get my tongue pierced. But I'm not allowed by a)parents and b)school, and it hurts like fuck, so, uh, no, actually. I want a grand total of 13 piercings, but will most likely never get any of 'em. Such is life. Moya still scares me. S/he has a rather...odd imagination, but no worse than Dani or Kurt's, I guess. It's kinda different when it's someone you have to talk to on an everyday basis. His/her journal is just weird. Note the 's/he' and 'his/her' things? I'm not sure whether to go with the circumstantial *ahem* evidence, or with the psychotic ramblings of his/her mind. S/he still maintains that s/he has a chick's body cause of a 'birth defect', but...I mean, I have no problem with it, I really don't, but does s/he have to shove it in everyone's faces all the time? It's just kinda annoying. I use male pronouns in his/her presence, just to save myself from the hassle I'd get if I didn't. Damn. Sleep is, as usual, intruding on my life. I'll update more tomorrow. TOMORROW Bloody hell, I've downloaded SO many music videos recently. Cradle of Filth, Alien Ant Farm, Yellowcard, Green Day, Sum 41, Nirvana, Weird Al Yancovic, Marilyn Manson... Yay for illegality, ne? The beginning of the Sum 41 Fat Lip video is bloody hilarious. As is most of In Too Deep. I'm still waiting for The Hell Song to download, though. Takes bloody ages. Stupid 'awaiting sources' thing. Meh. Limewire's better than SoulSeek, though. Easier to use, groovier, more users, faster. W00t. The GAC takes SO LONG TO LOAD. It's incredibly annoying. Grargh. Oh, Gods. I'm listening to Good Charlotte's Hold On right now and trying not to burst into tears. I get the feeling that this song is about the only thing that keeps me alive. My music is the only thing I care about, now. The only thing I can love that won't turn away from me. It's all I have, all I ever have had, all I ever will have. It keeps me alive, if not sane. This is not how it should be. I am not how I should be. ~*I push my fingers into my eyes, it's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...stop making me try, I'm not gonna make it!*~ |
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